nice day for a sulk, ya know,..? nice day for a mood,..

the sun won't be shining today,
that's ok though,
sometimes an overcast sky
can bring in a sort of subdued light.
"the imperceptible sun", kind of
reminds me of odd or weary news,
not a bombshell mind you, those
are saved for when there's not
a cloud in the sky, but I speak
of what we know as "news in passing".
the planting of a seed,
the state of affairs,
then what's rain, you ask?
brilliant little reminders.
stinging your desires,
keeping you at bay,
sometimes for the entire day.
but don't wait for thunderous
applause, it will not stand
for your ambition

what's with all these goose eggs recently?

so I know you woke up this morning & immediately checked this blog for last night's Manchester United result, & were thus disappointed, but know, your hero was too.

nil-nil at the weekend, & nil-nil again last night in Spain. So ya we tanked Stoke City a few weeks ago (5-0 at home), ya know that's to be expected, they've just come up from a lower division, the gulf in class is too deep. But a week before that, we went down to (what now looks like) a spineless Arsenal side, lacking direction & strength.

what gives? the problem is that I can & cannot figure out what the problem is. We're not scoring goals, which is obvious, but why? what's with the finishing? where is the link play from midfield?

Cristiano Ronaldo is too busy getting the S kicked outta him, Wayne Rooney is too busy coming back to center midfield to pick up the ball, Demitar Berbatov is too busy being injured, Nani is too busy just being worthless, Carlos Tevez is too busy running around like a mix between the Incredible Hulk & a feral child, lost, without a clue. & what about Tomasz Kuszczak in goal? My word,...what is he waiting on?? aaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!

will someone sort this mess out before it's too late????

The Manchester derby is this Sunday at Eastlands. Last year City did the double over us which left United fans & yours truely none to pleased. Can I put out a call to the lads??

Sort it!!!!

my total hero (possibly # 1, 2, or 3) - he's up there,.

(Akira Kurosawa looking like the master he was)

but taking some time right now, & more soon, to re-visit certain films of the past. trying to focus on social issues/commentary & the like, i.e., Stray Dog, Drunken Angel & last night sat down to breathe in Ikiru. (which translates: To Live). failing to get all literary on you & write proper review/criticism (since I finished college already) but this is a beautiful film to check out especially if you are like me & get all hot, fiery, frustrated (sometimes) around this time of year. ya know, consumerism & such: buy this, but that, punch a total stranger in the face, "I'll cuss you out man, that was my rotating barbie", I'm just trying to avoid crowds right now to keep my sanity, any-old, I digress,...


("Busy, so busy - but in fact, this man does nothing at all. Is this what life is all about?")

Ikiru is the tale of an ageing bureaucrat/standard run-of-the-mill government employee who learns that he has stomach cancer & has a mere few months to live. the news triggers a sense of urgency in our protagonist, Ken Watanabe, who immediately begins a search for purpose in his life. the search pays well as Wantanabe spends his last days fighting a resistant government bureaucracy in order to complete a park project in a nearby slum. the beauty in the film comes through in the compassion & dedication Wantanabe exhibits in trying to fulfill his purpose. he's found himself in a position where he's making up for 30 years of doing nothing in his life, in his final 6 months.


("I realize what they say about the nobility of misfortune is true, because misfortune teaches us the truth.")

at times, the movie feels slow, but I think that's the purpose. would time slow down, or speed up for you if you knew you had 6 months to live, & have thus far completed nothing substantial in your life? I can only imagine that I would spend the first 3 months asking myself questions. essentially what we have here with this film is the first masterpiece of many to come from a master director, & the film feels just like that. enjoy, or don't.

crumbs,...

I came to this world with nothing,
& I leave with nothing but love
everything else is just borrowed

so I know I've mentioned that album before, & all it's brilliance but come on. Like I wish I could live like that. I think that line is too perfect, too hard to live by, ya know humans & all, selfish desires, hate, war, pain, hunger stuff like that, & I'm not trying to bring the mood down, but if you think about that, & try to implement that into your life, well, maybe you'll find some sort of peace, ya know we (as in humans) get so caught up in so many different things. & I'm not totally clean of it, I can't totally wash my hands of it, but I swear to you, i keep that kind of stuff in the front of my difficult mind, what am I even talking about?

Like the way our society is built almost entirely around money & more importantly greed, but also control. I mean we are a controlled society, I really think there is such a small portion of us that aren't & a lot of people disagree with me, I know, but you should at least be thinking about things like capitalism, & greed & government. I mean I'll never be an expert on that stuff, because a lot of it bores me or doesn't interest me & I have other things tugging at me, I mean would the iPod ever have been made if it wasn't for certain elements of capitalism? probably not so I understand the relevance of free-market business & such, but where do we draw the line?

so thanks for the advice ya know? It's amazing how a few words from a mate, or your bird, can totally get you out of trouble, like gutter trouble. Even if you already know it, maybe they'll approach it, or present it from a different angle, & words are powerful, I know I'm not breaking any ground here but keep it in mind, we should all help each other out more.

1970's television on a furry bright orange carpet rug -

ya, ha ha,...that's what I call "bombast", which is inflated language or speech. Like, Yo! Halla atcha' boi,..ahh yeah!. but this is a picture of me as a little tike. hhmm, let me think, I was about 1 in 1973. that handsome man is my long lost uncle ironically named: Bro-ski. Bro-ski disappeared without a trace in the 1978 train robbery of eastern Philadelphia landslides. It's rumored that Bro-ski did everything in his power to stop the train robbers from bringing harm to his persoanl hero who just happened to be on the train, one William P. Funk. Who was appropriately named after, ya, you guessed it,.....any-old.

Sharing & the like,..


What wasn't reported in the initial findings of the train robbery was the amount of sheer violence that the temporary residents of "B" car had to haplessly endure. I mean why don't they rob trains like they used to? Back in the day, a simple rogue would empty a six-shooter into the roof, snatch some pearls off the Dutchess of York, & be done with it. I'm like "Geez, it's 1978, what gives?" any-old,..

What are so things you remember from the '70's?

In the news today - President elect sparks local economy in unlikely manner - an unusual predicament from the news desk - (chicken little),...

reporting live via telecommunications electronic filing riddles

- President elect Barack Obama has quickly risen to cult status among a new demographic. This new development in his rising popularity comes weeks before his being sworn in as our next commander in chief. Most U.S. citizens are aware of his "rock star" persona, & immense popularity especially among young people & minorities.

But some may not be aware of a new column in the Obama support chart: Gun Owners. (Yes!) More specifically, gun shop owners, traders & collectors. You heard it here first. Gun owners in the local Lexington Metro Area have seen an unprecedented spike in the price of semi & fully automatic high powered assault rifles & handguns.

The appointment of our nation's first black president has caused a controversy in certain areas of the country, especially in the deep south. But the appointment also caused a stir in the national gun scene. Gun owners fearing a ban, have raised prices on assault weapons thus gouging local gun buyers, mafia hit men, & local militia.

This supposed ban which hasn't even entered into the form of a written document yet has sent the local gun economy soaring. Gun buyers are purchasing guns at an astronomical rate to pad their arsenal in hopes to avoid any further price increase. Some gun buyers are turning around & immediately selling for a profit to rare gun collectors.

WARNING; Barack Obama WANT TO IMPOSE A 500% TAX on AMMO & BAN the SALE or TRANSFER of AK-47's & SEMI-AUTO AK-47's - BUY!!

(- www.ak47world.com)

Looks like gun shop owners & traders who voted against Obama may very well be laughing all the way to the bank.

(tongue & cheek you cheeky bastard)

a total classic (ha, fooled ya)

but isn't hope a beautiful thing? I mean I wasn't even planning on listening to this album at all today, i guess it just kind of found me. total grace - total beauty in these songs. (both in full display) I guess this recording never had a true identity for me because I was gifted all 3 essential albums from this band at the same time, so all that early work seemed to just flow together -- aahhh Cocoon just came on - I may float away into eternal bliss. OK, this could lead me to a list, which is something I haven't done in like so long, forever & ever, but I'll get you started - & then you can go out & just be & exist & think things over & breath in the cool air, but top 5 monday morning mood albums - Go! I mean let me just go ahead & throw Castaways And Cutouts in that list.
mellow extreme exhibition
grace,
beauty,
tragedy,
(all on the first try)
you haven't lived or cried until you've listened to Here I Dreamt I Was An Architect sipping warm coffee on a Parisian side street, (well, I haven't done that, but I'm sure I would be enjoying myself)
But this entire record is a painting, each song, or each lyric even, representing a single brilliant brush stroke, all hashed together to create something bigger. something beautiful, a different world if you will,...but I should go now. But check this recording out & find these stories. I mean be prepared for Europe circa early 1900's & the like,...

I'm in football heaven right now,....(man you gotta take the good with the bad Chula, I mean last week you were down in the dumps: I know, I know)

but I guess the lads won 5-0 y-day, which was a treat, I mean this 17 yr old kid named Danny Welbeck came on late in the game, & scored a blinder, I mean a laser beam, "fantastic futuristic freak" is what I was saying to myself. but Hull city & Manchester city are locked up like 2-2 right now, proper football atmosphere. speaking of,.....I went to American football again last night. I mean I love the company, these are qualities mates & all, but the UK cats lack a friggin' spine, ya know? oh well, something else,.....we Americans love to BOOOO people. I've never been across the lake (which is a total dream of mine, I mean totally, on a differen tlevel to go over there & walk those streets, & experience, & live & breath & such, but i digress,..) but I know a little about that culture & these are some srrious supporters of a club slash team & we all know what went on in the 70's & 80's with hooliganism & mindless ridiculous (& what I sometimes call "alex behavior") but, but, but, even with all of that, you don't hear a lot ofBOOO-ing over there. & that is what it is, I guess I mean this ref last night "gifted" the game to the visitors I mean wrapped it up on a Christmas serving dish, & theseLex-tonians just BOOO'd all night long, now across the way they would chant "the referees a wanker, the referees a wanker" all night long, which i think is quality & more intelligent & better, but you know me, & you know that I am partial. But here is anothe rlesson I learned. do not, i repeat DO NOT!! wear chuck taylor's outside in 30 degree weather for 4 or more hrs. you might be able to get away w/it for 1 or 2, butjust don't put yourself in that kind of pain. oh these needles,.....oh ya & had some sushi with some nice company lastie as well, it warmed my heart, brought back nothing but fantastic memories. but I'm off for now, ( i may or may not have made another (what i think is a) good mixtape) oh ya the Rome derby comes on later,..Yes!!

my total hero pt. 37

hip-hop - mashup (black vs white - positive fist fight - both sides win - birthed a grey twin)

so I spent some of my life in a bubble (POP!) & thus have missed certain experiences, things of interest, etc., etc., (i was a late bloomer) (thanks to a buddy who told me about this,..) but in 2004 an interesting piece of music was created by Danger Mouse (most notably from Gnarls Barkley fame). He bravely took The Beatles 1968 masterpiece The White Album & mashed it with an a cappella version of Jay-Z's equally brilliant 2003 effort, The Black Album. The end result being 2004's The Grey Album. You simply must sit down & experience this for yourself. If you don't listen to at least a little hip-hop in your life, well you should. (& if you don't listen to The Beatles in your life, well you probably shouldn't be reading this blog, or you have probably never understood it.) but I digress,..(concerning hip-hop -)....It's poetry (which is good) & beats (which are also good). But this is just such a fantastic example of what's possible with music. Cliche' time: Music is the universal language, it transcends. This is your culture people, don't let it pass you by. Sit down, down load, insert over-sized headphones as close as possible to your sensory receptors, or brain, & think it through. (it's not that big a'deal people, work with me)

(got bored & figured I would make up some artwork for the album - psych!)

oh, & here are just a few tracks to wet your beak with - (i stole that last line from, hhmm, I think it was actually Godfather 2)

self-depiction

so here i am - sat fat in a dream - haze - centrifugal interpretation - eyes closed - mind open to alternate possibilities - acute, but never speaking in absolutes - forbearance from my forefathers - meaningful dialogue trapped in underwater tunnel - mind's devices shadowed by compact walls - closing in, conscious, exact & fearful - a failed escape - a doomed release - a clown's jovial prank - interesting results from introspective thoughts - a fall out - a cry for help - trapped inside a rancid interpretation - but aware, anxious with relevant anticipation - calm, while patiently awaiting my combustion - strong, while catering to my weakening desires - tall, while reading into shallow dreams - large, while enabling only a peep of my lioness roar - a floundering talent - haven't yet reached my full potential - all the while escaping the impossible - been alive 27 years - 18 & stopped shedding tears - feelings, emotions, trapped inside like a charlatan's fear - laying down to rest now - back & forth, but residing in my home town - the attempt to pick up what I've laid down.

got into some things this weekend with my boys,...

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so ya, have you listened to my playlist yet? no real theme, or meaning, just some random stuff that I have been digging lately, some stuff I have been digging for years though as well. I'll try to do that every once in a while. I would just love it if people who read this web log digital master class, you know if you were having a bad day or something, like some songs that someone else put very little thought into (me, not the artists) cheered you up a little. but i know, i know those days when it's all just falling down, like I had one of those days recently. Where you try so hard to not just lay in bed & stair out the window, but you're unable to muster, conjure anything positive whatsoever. well, just continue the fight is all I can say. easier said than done, there must be a better day ahead, ya know? remember your loved ones, & the ones that are close to you, they probably love you more than you even deserve sometimes. i'm not saying to hide away your feelings, but try to put yourself in someone else's shoes every once ina'...

i guess it's about perspective & trying not to fall back into your own selfish desires. i'm also aware that sometimes when i write stuff, it's just a reminder to myself. I wish i was a better writer, ya know. poems don't really come to me anymore, & you cant really force that kind of thing, no formal training, it's really just about understanding & writing about living, isn't that what all art is? just different ways to relate to being alive? since we all are actually alive, that's really the only thing we have in common with each other. that's the only thing we can really relate to, art is universal in that way. but anyways, that's just something i think is important.

so this is it?
look at all these trophies i've acquired
reminders for a gloomy day
road maps to my past
material things that just won't last
themes to set your mind to
your age found you on a rainy day
nickel & dimed yourself to get it together
a struggle constant & true -
bad vibes coming from the future
sleepy eyes to make it clear
a certain sense of uncertainty rings bright & bold
magnifying glass flipped around
it's on you now, time to decide
a decision must be made.
truths in riddles
unable to figure out
dread & fret like a painful clout
what can be done to clear webs?
fuzzy webs to get you through
a days mistake, so simple, so fluid.
buildings crumble around you
as you begin your slow & vivid
return to simple dust.

yes it's true, my love for you is real - please relax.

mara-rooney, or,...

somewhere, somehow, some goal keeper just had a fatal heart-attack, or some dude just rolled over in his grave. man, if we could roll back time,....

do you ever feel like this in your life?





I do.

like a big, violent crashing wave looming over my head, oh & what's more,...? that damn wave has little spikey claws about to scratch me eyes out! I'm going into hiding/hibernation. That's always been a dream of mine. Bears have it lucky. Let's just go,......

proper profound pressure cooker

ah ha! we meet again in this digital realm. did you see that park full of people on the lastie, (?) awaiting victorious words from a different approach! it was, it was, it was, I do believe, like a proper rock concert-gathering. the masses out en masse. i dunno - pressure. lot's of things to look at - to fix - clean - dust - but here I sit with some renewed hope for a few minutes. was my super hero joke funny? not at all? hhmm oh well - i was pleased with the effort. but anyway, I still feel like there are a lot of crooked people out there. we gotta watch out for each other. I mean I don't get into politics much, esepically on the state & local level. Living in the south or certain areas of this country, I mean I guess I don't relate much to those boneheads. Doesn't it seem like it's still one big ole' boys club? I mean I'm reading this amazing book by Hunter T., & he was going through the same type things not even an hr. & a half up the rd. in Louisville in the late 60's. ha - "These Things Take Time" remember? - but it's amazing how some things this country we're going through 40 or 50 yrs ago are still relevant these days. I guess we just gotta love each other - which is hard - I know - but remember your family - & a sense of community - even if you aren't really happy in your life -or your job - you gotta find a way to have a release every once in a while - & if that release comes in the form of some sort of hope from a new world leader, then so be it. it's up to you to find that place - I guess however you voted, at this point, it really doesn't matter - because how many people have said it?,......."We're All In This Thing Together" - & that's true - especially at this point. ok then,......w/love

I mean come on, think about it - Let's face facts
1. He's brilliant/educated
2. He's really rich
3. He has an outstanding record of cleaning up cities & fighting crime
4. He's a bachelor, thus no female to distract him
5. He's a proven leader (ask certain members of The Justice League)
All characteristics point towards Batman for our next president.
Please help me in this fight. Don't let The Joker, The Penguin & The Riddler take what we love about this country for themselves. Let your voice be heard. I'll be anxiously awaiting the results all day today. w/love - jesse

no, for real though -

(that was the worst rap/rhyme ever written, but anyway)
So stop by first thing tomorrow morning before you vote, because we def. should (vote that is). I'm just saying honestly, I hope I can sway some of you - I mean if you are leaning one way or the other & need some help, well look no further. I've been doing a lot of research for the past few months & have been remaining extremely quiet on the matter, like i.e., who I think is going to win - & all the important issues that we as Americans really care about. Because in the end, this is an important election & we seriously need some good, strong leadership. So tonight, think long & hard, but promise me that (if you can) try & read what I have to say, because there have been some really important issues that have been weighing heavily on my heart. I promise I won't take this lightly. I think if we can (try our hardest to) Unite as citizens of a great country, then we can really make a difference. O.K., then,............w/love

these beats (inspired funk) what? what? que the track

infectious beats - bangin' courageous feats -
hearing slime'd up rhymes - the litany - inspired concrete streets
the call - the acceptance - the answered back beats
head-throbbing flowing - the decision
with proper direct precision - chump gear action -
wanna-be honorable mention - delayed satisfaction
bring the funk - hear the flying duck - the audition
these beats cause infection - my intention
drop the pen - spontaneous BOOM - inflates ambition
brothas passing Scooby-Doo rhymes through the gate
Madvillain blockin' entrance witha' super hero cape -
yo yo, take this next verse -
& ya don't stop - halla chumps! we out -

(stop in tomorrow for my special election day pick)

electric current

funk

i ran into this dude lastie - so happy H - i don't understand this so-called holiday - it does nothing for me - i am an old man - bye -