so ya, have you listened to my playlist yet? no real theme, or meaning, just some random stuff that I have been digging lately, some stuff I have been digging for years though as well. I'll try to do that every once in a while. I would just love it if people who read this web log digital master class, you know if you were having a bad day or something, like some songs that someone else put very little thought into (me, not the artists) cheered you up a little. but i know, i know those days when it's all just falling down, like I had one of those days recently. Where you try so hard to not just lay in bed & stair out the window, but you're unable to muster, conjure anything positive whatsoever. well, just continue the fight is all I can say. easier said than done, there must be a better day ahead, ya know? remember your loved ones, & the ones that are close to you, they probably love you more than you even deserve sometimes. i'm not saying to hide away your feelings, but try to put yourself in someone else's shoes every once ina'...

i guess it's about perspective & trying not to fall back into your own selfish desires. i'm also aware that sometimes when i write stuff, it's just a reminder to myself. I wish i was a better writer, ya know. poems don't really come to me anymore, & you cant really force that kind of thing, no formal training, it's really just about understanding & writing about living, isn't that what all art is? just different ways to relate to being alive? since we all are actually alive, that's really the only thing we have in common with each other. that's the only thing we can really relate to, art is universal in that way. but anyways, that's just something i think is important.

so this is it?
look at all these trophies i've acquired
reminders for a gloomy day
road maps to my past
material things that just won't last
themes to set your mind to
your age found you on a rainy day
nickel & dimed yourself to get it together
a struggle constant & true -
bad vibes coming from the future
sleepy eyes to make it clear
a certain sense of uncertainty rings bright & bold
magnifying glass flipped around
it's on you now, time to decide
a decision must be made.
truths in riddles
unable to figure out
dread & fret like a painful clout
what can be done to clear webs?
fuzzy webs to get you through
a days mistake, so simple, so fluid.
buildings crumble around you
as you begin your slow & vivid
return to simple dust.