self-depiction

so here i am - sat fat in a dream - haze - centrifugal interpretation - eyes closed - mind open to alternate possibilities - acute, but never speaking in absolutes - forbearance from my forefathers - meaningful dialogue trapped in underwater tunnel - mind's devices shadowed by compact walls - closing in, conscious, exact & fearful - a failed escape - a doomed release - a clown's jovial prank - interesting results from introspective thoughts - a fall out - a cry for help - trapped inside a rancid interpretation - but aware, anxious with relevant anticipation - calm, while patiently awaiting my combustion - strong, while catering to my weakening desires - tall, while reading into shallow dreams - large, while enabling only a peep of my lioness roar - a floundering talent - haven't yet reached my full potential - all the while escaping the impossible - been alive 27 years - 18 & stopped shedding tears - feelings, emotions, trapped inside like a charlatan's fear - laying down to rest now - back & forth, but residing in my home town - the attempt to pick up what I've laid down.