i sit, hapless & alone sometimes,

but happy, or content i should describe -

that's a better word for my consciousness -

happy is a better word for

older people that are content.

but I am young, a young buck

if you will,...ready to pounce

on my prey at any moment -

i need only a second to

fulfill my objective, i will strike

unannounced & consume my desires,

interested with only my thoughts

for a moment's edginess -

totally in love with the sound of the

dishwasher swirling - selfish desires -

for me to have - have it all -

all this time away from monsters

makes one brave again -

strong & aloft,

but curious to a cause

i'm just waiting for you to come down,

to slow me up - to slow time -

to consummate this lust,

this lingering passion inside me

leftover from a previous statement of well-being

won't you please sit down?

have a seat - &

discuss thoughts of interest?

i see things, things all around me that i don't

understand - things i dont like, question,

contemplate, decide, wonder, perceive, assume,

(why am I always getting these weird looks?)

don't want to understand,

not interested in,

does it matter if i can produce

an answer for these riddles? or no?

who are we living for anyway?

would you like to enter into a debate with me?

the slowing of time - the speeding up of loneliness

wasn't it just a love story in the end?

a peerless production to pull at

your heart strings?

a statement of accurate intentions -

authenticated by our minds' connections,

no, i'm afraid it was more than that,

it was an epic answer to hate & war -

a brilliant explanation to life's charades,

shall we stop pretending now?

how do we fight loneliness?

smile all the time? or die trying?

the sun could very well not shine

on your side of the bed -

won't we all not sniff up sunshine into our noses

one day? can we believe differently?

can we see a reason not to?

that feeling, the lonely pain, endless hrs sharing

only your own mind with yourself - that's true

pain, that's the reason for our existence,

to fight loneliness,

to love each other,

& fight together,

& i suppose die trying to stay ahead of it all -

i wanna see someone

else's reflection from

time to time, ..............

you finish this now.